Weird weird dreams of late. Sign of fatigue? Sign from fleeting consciousness? Or sign from the almighty? I don't remember all my dreams or any in particular order. But here's a list from the past one week:

I dreamt of brushing my teeth... neutral. (No clue why I dreamt of this... lol)

I dreamt of CN... +ve context. (I was very happy in this dream, we were laughing and smiling all the time... I woke up in high spirits!)

I dreamt of mom... +ve context. (I love my mom so much, that I even dream of hanging out with her?)

I dreamt of gold... +ve context. (I was excited buying and selling gold, is this a business idea or a revelation?)

I dreamt of my brother... -ve context. (Although I love my brother, there was something sinister about this dream. He had tattoos on his face and across his body in an evil way... It was almost like the images were floating above his skin... Not sure what this means, we are thinking of starting a business together and I have to be wary of him?)

Hmmm... time will tell. More strange dreams or dreams come true.

I am a sentimental fool. This song just keeps playing in my mind - "First of May" by our very own Singaporean singer Olivia Ong, just like her rendition of it. Mellow... melancholic...

Taking the GMAT tomorrow, wishing myself the best of luck. I always knew I was an average test-taker, have I only recently come to terms with it?

Life here in NY has certainly hardened me up. Time really seems to fly by, in a blink of an eye... I graduated college and have been working for more than two years. I wonder in another blink, where will I be?

I miss my family, love them more than anything in the world, although sometimes they can drive me crazy when I spend too much time with them. LOL. Almost like what they say: "Too much of a good thing is a bad thing".

I want to write a book someday, been telling myself that for years. I really should start penning it down, my thoughts and philosophies, my experiences to share; doesn't matter if people do not buy them, at least when I am old and grey, I can read it as a journal and pass it to my grandchildren. hahaha

I am stealing this from Michelle's blog. Oh well, guess she will never find out. lol

"When we were kids, we always couldn't wait to grow up. But when we actually did, we realised all too soon that time has left its marks on us, and that no one, not any of us here on this planet, can stop the march of time."

Love it - apt, always thought this old man reminiscing thing was BS. However, thinking back to memories of the past... yea I've been on this earth a long time.

On a side note, Mich and I dated 10 years ago?! So young then.... oh well.... LOL Anyway, she was always one of the hottest gf that I had. Just looked at some of her pictures, still smoking.... Good memories I guess?

Everyday - pray for God's wisdom and favor. "Mom, I wish it was really that easy"

Everyday is hot mess, thinking about going to LA for thanksgiving and Dec heading back to SG.

Drinking everyday, haven't been to bed sober for the past one month.

Insomnia.... why are you knocking....

Friends... aren't they a charm....

Work.... sucks hard....

Love.... a dream... a dream....



Hate... so much inside....

Latest phrases...

OOC = Out of Control
Hot Mess

Latest craze...

Drinking ... drinking... and more drinking...

Thoughts: Thinking of doing PWM.

I write ... I write ... for the mistakes of man, for the worries of parents, for the insecurities of children, for the loneliness of single-hood, for the hypocrisy of people (esp New Yorkers).

God shine a path and save our souls. Amen.

Had an epiphany today:

We go about choosing our better halves just like choosing books at the bookstore - this experience is similiar to when I was buying books at Fort Lauderdale international airport.
*In this case, assume there is only one book of each unique title, because in this airport there was only one of each. Assume limited time to flight and limited funds, because that's what I have.

• We know that the flight was be long and boring, so we want to get a book for company - Just like how we need a companion for the journey of life
• We go into bookstore and browse for the book - Just like filtering through the partners we have before settling for the right one
• Choose the book that we want to read and will entertain us for the journey according to our tastes and preferences - Just like how we will choose a partner that will be most suitable for us out of all the potentials we meet
• Purchase the book - Getting attached/married
• Walking around the corner and seeing another bookstore - A new milestone with new opportunities
• Start browsing at books again - Temptation
• Of all the other books in that OTHER store, you find the best book - Dilemma
• You start comparing, with the book you already got with the new book you are holding in your hand - Indecision

Don't you think that is so true? Draw parrallel instances to shopping for clothes... anything etc. I bring this example up because I was talking Denise today about the TV series 'The Bachelor' and 'The Bachelorette'. I borrowed Robin's quote for this exercise: Throw 20 females in a room fighting for one guy, that solo male will eventually end up with one of them. Now when the show is over, will they still end up together since the guy was forced to choose one in a sample population of 20? (Of course we discussed that and pointed out that there must have been over 1000 applicants for each show and personalities were screened to be TV-worthy)

This is an important point. The pool of people we know, determines who will be our partner. (Think about this, because of this people go to bars/clubs so that they can break away from their normal network and have a chance meeting with someone. This could undoubtedly mean that their pool = bars/clubs) So amongst what little people we know now, we try to make an informed decision about who to pick or who to like. Buy the right book before someone else buys it off the shelves and on top of that, find one quickly before your plane takes off. Sounds challenging? I think so.